• One day my soul just opened up

    One day my soul just opened up

    One day my soul just opened up
    and things started happening
    things I can’t quite explain
    I mean
    I cried and cried like never before
    I cried tears of ten thousand mothers
    I couldn’t even feel anything because
    I cried ‘til I was numb.

    One day my soul just opened up
    I felt this overwhelming pride
    what I was proud of only God knows!
    Like the pride of a hundred thousand fathers
    basking in the glory of their newborn sons
    I was grinning from ear to ear!

    One day my soul just opened up I started laughing
    and I laughed for what seemed like forever
    wasn’t nothing particularly funny going on but I laughed anyhow
    I laughed the joy of a million children playing in the mud
    I laughed until my sides ached
    Oh God! It felt so good!

    One day, my soul just opened up
    There were revelations, annihilations, and resolutions
    feelings of doubt and betrayal, vengeance and forgiveness
    memories of things I’d seen and done before
    of places I’d been, although I didn’t know when
    there were lives I’d lived
    people I’d loved
    battles I’d fought
    victories I’d won
    and wars I’d lost.

    One day, my soul just opened up
    and out poured all things
    I’d been hiding
    and denying
    and living through
    that had just happened moments before.

    One day, my soul just opened up
    and I decided
    I was good and ready!
    I was good and ready
    to surrender my life to God.

    So, with my soul wide open,
    I sat down
    wrote Her a note
    and told her so.

    iyanla-vanzant
    Iyanla Vanzant, 1998, “One Day My Soul Just Opened Up” Published by Touchstone