About Katrina
I have battled with my weight for literally as long as I can remember. It was tough coming from a really big (in size, not numbers) in the time of Twiggy and Mia Farrow. My mother, father and two brothers were all heavy, over 300 pounds each of them. I can only remember one time in my life when I felt that my body looked really good by society’s standard and that was a period of around 2 years in the 1980’s when I worked out or ran every single day. I probably had 10-15% body fat at the most and was a size 12. Prior to that, I was having babies and feeling fat.
I look back at those times via photos and I looked wonderful. I once found a diet journal that showed I was trying to diet down from 131 two weeks after David was born (I’m 5′5″). I always felt fat, every minute, except for that one period of time.
Like a self-fulfilling prophecy, I did get fat. I need to lose around 100 pounds right now and like most of America, I need to do it fast, not because my health is in jeopardy. As nearly as I can tell, my health is fine. I need to lose it to cross it off of my “to do” list and feel better about what I’ve accomplished.
My husband, who I adore, has never seen me any way but fat. Neither have my children. It would be nice for them to know that and feel proud of waht I’ve done.
There are a lot of reasons, but the main reason I want to lose weight is so I can have better sex. I like sex. (Don’t read that, kids, OK?) The weight is limiting and I want those limits gone.
So there it is. I am working to see what I can accomplish my May 2009. That’s when I go out into the world again on a regular basis. For now, I have closed the door with the exception of a few events I need to manage through the Winter. It’s nothing like the every week community work I do through the warmth of the year, so I can hide and just do my thing.
I have tried pretty much every diet pill on the market and every diet ever written. I’m going to white knuckle it unless someone writes to me with a fail proof cure. I do not fare well on all protein or all carb diets, so it will be a mix.
Off I go down this road again after taking a long detour!
Katrina,
Overeaters Anonymous can help. I have dieted all my life and never lost weight. OA really helped me. It got my mind straight as well as my body. I have lost weight and gained it but never kept it off. It’s because my brain wasn’t ready. You don’t need a diet because it won’t work. OA can help. Go to http://www.oa.org and look at the 15 question checklist. It can let you know if OA can help you.
Comment by Katherine :: April 11, 2009 @ 10:36 amI investigated OA before and for a lot of reasons, it wasn’t for me. This new thing, however, seems to be the golden ticket.
Comment by Katrina :: April 11, 2009 @ 11:05 amKatrina, I have read you blog and bio and I must say; with the exception of child birth I can relate to most everything you are experiencing.
Comment by Dick :: November 3, 2009 @ 6:20 pm14 months ago at age 49 I weighed 376 pounds. That weight fits right in with my family profile. We were taught to eat high fat, high carb meals. I ached all over and I barely had the energy to go back and forth to work. The thing is, the excessive weight steals hope long before is destroys your body. As I rolled toward 50 I assumed the next ten years would be progressively worse.
Honestly, Dick, I don’t believe childbirth influenced my weight gain all that much. It’s just an easy excuse like everything else. You are so right about the hope. It gets to the point that the job is so big you don’t even want to get started. 50 looms and is an amazing motivator. Hugs.
Comment by Katrina :: November 3, 2009 @ 8:21 pm