Do I Look Fat In This?

Finally, finally, oh finally I feel victory within my grasp on this whole weight loss/fitness mess.  I can’t even count how many years I’ve been fooling with it, how many years it has been critical, how many times I have failed.  This time is it.  I can just feel it in my bones.  I can actually feel my bones, which is nice too!

I am still eating 1000 calories or less a day.  My body has been satisfied overall on the reduced intake and I don’t have any cravings, especially when I take the Mila as well.  My portions are teeny tiny, like a toddler serving size.  I never imagined I would be satisfied on so little, but I have really been able to see how much I was eating out of habit, how much I was eating to comfort myself and how long I would eat once I actually had taken in enough to meet my needs.  I felt bad one day last week, I can’t remember when, because I got up to 1080 calories.  I tallied up my afternoon’s count after dinner and almost cried.  I’d been doing so well!  I realized quickly how dumb it was to get worked up over 80 calories, so I just kept my intake to 900 calories the next day.  I figured it was like storing up weigh watcher points.

This week is exercise week.  Since I have managed the diet part of the process, I knew it was time to get moving again.  I considered the myriad of options I had right here in my own house and knew that the best results I’d ever had came from the “Extreme Makeover Fitness” DVD.  I started it again yesterday and it absolutely kicked my complete ass.  It is divided up into several work outs, including both strength and cardio for different areas of the body.  You can also select the “Best Results Workout,” which is a preset fitness plan for each day of the week to make sure you get a total body work out all week long.  That’s what I am doing.  Monday is around 45 minutes long and today was 38 or so minutes.  My arms were sore yesterday from an upper body toning session included in the work out and today’s soreness is in the abs, which is really good.

I was surprised by how little progress I lost and how I was able to stay right with the work out and not modify or take a break.  I was absolutely pouring sweat.  I remember, several years ago, typing that no matter how hard I work out, I never sweat.  Well ha ha.  My body sure remembered how to sweat with a little encouragement!  My biggest loss has been on core strength and my balance is not as good as it was, but I know that will come back quickly.

I lost another pound, which brings me up to 7 pounds lost in 9 days.  I don’t expect to continue that degree of weight loss since I was on my period when I started and holding some water weight and because I always tend to start out strong and then level off.  Meanwhile, I am grateful to have a good head start on the process.

This is the best launch I have ever had to a weight loss attempt and I am excited to see where I am going to be by November 1st.  I can already feel incredible changes in my body, both systemically and in shape.  Eric has commented on how different I feel when he hugs me.  I am absolutely breathless that this is actually, finally happening.

I still take the Mila every day.  On low energy days like today (very little sleep), I also take EmergenC and a good dose of B-12, along with my PremPro. 

I can absolutely feel the success in this.  I can do it, I am doing it, it is so.