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January 14, 2008
Well, here it is almost a week after the power came back on and I'm still
trying to get caught up.
There were plenty of challenging things about the experience and I
am still putting it all together in my head. We got our power back on
last Tuesday night, which was day #5. Some folks were restored on
Wednesday and others did not get power back until last night.
The kids only went to school on Friday of last week because the
power on that side of town took longer to get turned on. Friday was
previously scheduled as a super minimum day, so they were home by 1:30,
which showed up in no time at all.
The last time I had a full day without kids was the Thursday before
Christmas.
I will enjoy today very much.
When Delena got on the bus at 6:15, I woke up Eric and hauled him
downstairs to work out with me. Of course, he was way better at it
than I was. I haven't worked out in a couple of months and it
completely kicked my butt. He's all lean, strong and healthy, so he
pulled it off without a hitch (but did have to switch from 25 pound weight
to 10 about halfway through the sculpting).
I have to work today, so that will take up a good bit of the time
the kids are gone, but I'm all set to totally milk the rest of it. I
want to get in some practice on the organ, since one of my goals for the
year was to learn to play the thing.
Oh yes. I plan to suck every drop out joy out of every minute
of today like draining the last drop of Diet Coke through a straw.
What I really want to do is to go back upstairs, crawl into the bed
and sleep for a bunch of hours.
Eric is owed a huge pile of money by a bunch of people (I am
learning that this is status quo for the construction business) and he is
now 6 weeks out of delivering the mail. I sure do miss that
automatic deposit that used to go into the checking account the first of
every month. Still, I know it was the right thing for him to do and
if we have to go through some challenging times to get from one place to
another, then that's what we'll do.
I think what bugs me most about it is that there have been 1 or 2 or
20 different places where situations could have resolved in such a way
that it would have been considerably easier for us, but instead, the
result was that it ended up being more complicated. A little support
here! UNIVERSE, are you LISTENING???
Nope, don't want to talk about the potentially scary stuff.
Got to stay positive!
My faith is unwavering that things are exactly as they are supposed
to be and if situations are tough, it's because some critical element is
contained in them that needs to be mined out and examined. Sure,
sometimes it's nothing profound. Freud tried to make a point in
saying, "Sometimes, a cigar is just a cigar." Meaning that it's
there's no deep meaning behind it, it just is.
I do feel that everything happens for a purpose, but I do not feel
that all of, or even most of, those purposes are particularly interesting
or profound.
I also do not believe that everything that happens to us is
particularly about us. It's actually fairly egocentric to believe
that it is.
Sometimes, it's about someone else and we just happen to be the
passenger.
Today feels like the first day of normalcy in a long, long time.
My program is for the hours that I am transcribing to fly by and the hours
when I am not to slow down so I can relish them.
It's 9am and I have already dragged myself out of bed, gotten 3 kids
out the door to school in two batches, worked out, had my breakfast and
almost finished this entry. Not bad for 3.5 hours!
Did I mention I want to go back to sleep?
I really want to go back to sleep.
...and my arms are really, really sore from those weights.
...and I desperately need a shower.
....and to go back to bed.
Damn.
Be particular,
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